A Chronicle of my Changing Times.

I've just finished the fifth and most recent Harry Potter book (I got it from Amy at lunch on Friday).  It's quite good, and I can now count myself as one of the millions of fans eagerly awaiting the next installment.  It took me a mere day to read, although it's over 800 some odd pages long.  I'd definately recomend the series to anyone who's looking for something to read.

Of course reading this came at a cost.  I haven't done anything I need to this weekend.  For instance, I've got all my medical stuff together and completed for the Peace Corps minus a small paragraph long write up.  Everything else has been together for over 2 weeks now.  As soon as this is off in the mail everything I need to do is completed.  Except, of course respond positively to their offer (whenever it comes in).  I'm not quite sure why I've put this off for so long.  Just need to buckle down and do it tomorrow.

I had a call last night from the director of music at my church, Ellen.  I recently rejoined a choir from which I'd taken a year and a half sabatical.  They'd been going through some growing pains after seperating themselves from an orchestra in town and I'd been too busy.  So I signed up to sing through the holiday season.  I must admit it's wonderful to be singing again - I hadn't realized how much I missed it.  Anyhoo, we're now practicing at my church (which is mildly weird) and at this previous Monday's practice, said director popped her head in to listen for a few minutes.  She was surprised to see me, I think.  I've done things with my local congregation such as sing with the choir and help out with handbells in the past.  Honestly though, the choir isn't very good so I being a choral snob that I am don't enjoy singing with them and have stopped.  And handbells was something I found tedious and managed to wrangle out of a few years back under the excuse of being too busy.  Well Ellen called to ask me, since she saw me singing in this Charlotte choir, if I'd come back to help out with handbells.  No, not choir - handbells.  I guess she figures that if I have time for a choir, I now have time for handbells.  Thing is, I don't really have an excuse not to do it other than I find it tedious.  The only thing I have going on right now is my preparations for the GRE.  Well, I have loads else going on, but nothing else on Thursday evenings at 7.  I told her that I'd think about it and check my schedule and let her know by tomorrow, but that I most likely would help.  So now I have to give her an answer in 6 hours - one which I really don't want to give.  Oh well...

Such is my life.

Posted by: mjmarble at August 29, 2004 03:30 | link | comments

Let me just say that women suck. Or at least not having a woman sucks. Or being attracted to a woman who's already taken sucks. Ok, everything sucks.

I worry that I spend too much time on this worrying about women. There's plenty else going on and I really don't spend all that much time fretting about it - at least not proportionally to the amount of time I spend on it here. But today women are on my mind - especially one woman.

I had lunch today with a woman named Amy. She's the one who I mentioned briefly before who was in both my Stats and Macro Econ classes with me. I really didn't talk to her durning the spring when we were in Econ together, at least not until the last couple classes. I did almost ask her out after our final class as we walked out to our cars together - but at the last moment chickened out. Well low and behold, she shows up this summer in my Stats class. And just about every night after class we ended up walking out to our cars together and chatting for 30-90 minutes after class.

After a couple days of talking, I indirectly found out she had a boyfriend with whom she just moved in. So I trashed any idea of asking her out and just began to enjoy her company.

Well, class is over and we've begun the transition from being friends in a class together to being friends outside of class. She's lent me a few Harry Potter books and is hooking me up with the chiropractor she works for as an office assistant. And we had lunch together today and will be getting together at some future point to "have coffee" even though I don't drink the stuff.

What stinks is that although I long ago decided to just pursue friendship with her, I can't help but be overwhelming attracted to her. She looked exceptionally beautiful today and as it stands, yet I don't even feel comfortable enough to let her know that lest it somehow be improper. I know, that's in my own head - it's fine to give a compliment. But I've drawn myself a line which I feel I will not cross.

All I know is that I'll continue to enjoy her (her name is Amy) company as along as she'll lend it to me. I just need to keep pinching myself as a reminder that she's not available. Occasionally the timing just isn't right. And that just sucks. A lot.

Posted by: mjmarble at August 27, 2004 17:28 | link | comments (1)

Yes, I am still alive.

Yes, it's been forever since I've posted.

Yes, there is a lot of things to catch up on.

Yes, ya'll can still bug me about not posting - on here and in person (if ya know me).

Yes, I'm pissed that the Indians lost 9 (count 'em nine freakin' times) going into tonight.

Yes, I'm still confounded by one woman or another.  It's a perpetual state of being.

No, I won't be writing anymore tonight.  I might tomorrow at work, though.  Check back.

 

Posted by: mjmarble at August 26, 2004 00:46 | link | comments

General updates are coming - when I finally get caught up on sleep.  Exhaustion is a pain...

Oh, got an A in Stats so it must be worth it.  And who knew that the Harry Potter series was so dang good.  And I'm still a chickenshit.  That is all.

Posted by: mjmarble at August 12, 2004 23:54 | link | comments (1)