I worry that I spend too much time on this worrying about women. There's plenty else going on and I really don't spend all that much time fretting about it - at least not proportionally to the amount of time I spend on it here. But today women are on my mind - especially one woman.

I had lunch today with a woman named Amy. She's the one who I mentioned briefly before who was in both my Stats and Macro Econ classes with me. I really didn't talk to her durning the spring when we were in Econ together, at least not until the last couple classes. I did almost ask her out after our final class as we walked out to our cars together - but at the last moment chickened out. Well low and behold, she shows up this summer in my Stats class. And just about every night after class we ended up walking out to our cars together and chatting for 30-90 minutes after class.

After a couple days of talking, I indirectly found out she had a boyfriend with whom she just moved in. So I trashed any idea of asking her out and just began to enjoy her company.

Well, class is over and we've begun the transition from being friends in a class together to being friends outside of class. She's lent me a few Harry Potter books and is hooking me up with the chiropractor she works for as an office assistant. And we had lunch together today and will be getting together at some future point to "have coffee" even though I don't drink the stuff.

What stinks is that although I long ago decided to just pursue friendship with her, I can't help but be overwhelming attracted to her. She looked exceptionally beautiful today and as it stands, yet I don't even feel comfortable enough to let her know that lest it somehow be improper. I know, that's in my own head - it's fine to give a compliment. But I've drawn myself a line which I feel I will not cross.